Yeah. It's been 6 years now this week since my late gf died. There wasn't a thing I could do to save her and I tried for years. It bothers me to this day. I still sometimes hope that someone in the distance with a similar shape in a crowded place is her and that it's all been a terrible mistake of some sort.
Other people deserve a lot of blame in it because it was the end culmination of abuse that started in elementary school so there were opportunities to address things but they were ignored and her family had their own problems they were struggling with. By the time I came into the picture the train had already left the station.
Mental illness is no different from a physical illness, just our understanding of it. But the two are interrelated to a certain extent. A physical illness can cause mental illness and vice versa. Best to treat both at the same time.
Crap sorry about your loss.... people Who have never witnessed it truly don't understand or have no clue.......