I love my cigarette and my coffee.
Started at 13, quit for 3 months at 27.
I was determined to quit to see if I can do it.
After physical cravings were gone, I was just a lonely person. Healthy runner with good lungs, but sad.
I realized that most ex smokers miss their cigarettes, every day of their non smoking life. Some are honest and admit it, some lie to themselves.
Truth is, I always liked the smell of tobacco. Even my first cigarette was enjoyable. ( I went and bought a pack right after).
My cigarette is my best friend, it has been with me through all.
Sounds stupid, but this is how I feel.
I quit because everyone thinks it's the right thing to do, and because I thought it would be good for me too. I quit because I didn't like being thought of as a nasty addict, standing outside in the rain having my fix.
It is true: I don't like that I'm an addict.
When I don't smoke, I am still an addict. Sad, depressed addict.
So... I like smoking more than I dislike addiction, at least for now.
Maybe one day I will quit for good, but it will not be soon.
Started at 13, quit for 3 months at 27.
I was determined to quit to see if I can do it.
After physical cravings were gone, I was just a lonely person. Healthy runner with good lungs, but sad.
I realized that most ex smokers miss their cigarettes, every day of their non smoking life. Some are honest and admit it, some lie to themselves.
Truth is, I always liked the smell of tobacco. Even my first cigarette was enjoyable. ( I went and bought a pack right after).
My cigarette is my best friend, it has been with me through all.
Sounds stupid, but this is how I feel.
I quit because everyone thinks it's the right thing to do, and because I thought it would be good for me too. I quit because I didn't like being thought of as a nasty addict, standing outside in the rain having my fix.
It is true: I don't like that I'm an addict.
When I don't smoke, I am still an addict. Sad, depressed addict.
So... I like smoking more than I dislike addiction, at least for now.
Maybe one day I will quit for good, but it will not be soon.