Thank you everyone for the kind words. I appreciate this so much.
Every day is so hard. The pain just continues. I didn't know the human body could cry so much.
I've lost human friends and family. I've lost other critters. I've never lost a dog. Blair was my first dog. While you cry, grieve and move on with other losses, this is so completely different.
I had been holding off changing my bedding. Heck, I can't even bring myself to vacuum his fur off the carpet. And those of you who know me IRL know I keep a clean house. I finally changed the bedding today and placed one of Blair's favourite toys at the end of the bed where he slept every night. It seemed right since he would always be the first onto the bed on fresh bedding day.
My every day had Blair rituals. He'd always be outside the bathroom door waiting for me to finish showering. He'd always demand a cookie and a kiss and hug after breakfast. He'd hang out and watch me get ready for work. He'd greet me at the door when I got home with excitement even if I'd only been gone for 10 minutes. Etc., etc., etc.
Again, thanks for the kind words and support everyone.