It always sucks. It sucked the first time I had to do it in my mid 20's. I couldn't even be there when they did it, I had to leave the room after a long goodbye in his kennel. It haunts me to this day that I wasn't there in his last moments. But I just couldn't do it.
We had 2 cats since then pass away naturally at home and that was a bit easier as we knew their time was coming, they weren't in pain (kidney issues, after a few borrowed years post-diagnosis and treatment, they just fade away until one day they don't wake up) and as much as it sucks, it was easier than having to make the decision to euthanize.
And it really sucked yesterday. Because we had to make that decision.
Our 7 year old (too young) tabby developed a drooling issue a few weeks back. Thought it was just a dental issue or an abscess.
Long story short...mouth cancer. No hope of surgical resolution. And he was going downhill fast. It was heartbreaking watching him desperately trying to groom himself but he couldn't. And in the last day he couldn't even eat.
We visited the vet on Saturday and got the bad news. We made the heartbreaking decision to see him off the next day. So we had 24 hours to say goodbye.
I didn't want to make that same mistake again that I made the first time, so I ensured I was there with all of us around him, and tried to not turn into a puddle.
Watching him pass away in our arms is something I will never be able to get out of my head. And watching my (adult) kids have their hearts broken as well was even worse.
Next level was watching my son lose his best buddy (they had an absolute special bond, I don't even know how to explain it) was absolutely gutting. And still is. I about lost it when he took one last picture holding his paw back here at home before we buried him.
As much as it was the right decision to relieve his pain and suffering, it is always incredibly heartbreaking, especially at such a young age. And it happened so fast.
I know the pain will lessen for all of us. Time heals all wounds. But wow, pets get deep into your heart.
Ugh.
Sorry, just needed to clear my head.
We had 2 cats since then pass away naturally at home and that was a bit easier as we knew their time was coming, they weren't in pain (kidney issues, after a few borrowed years post-diagnosis and treatment, they just fade away until one day they don't wake up) and as much as it sucks, it was easier than having to make the decision to euthanize.
And it really sucked yesterday. Because we had to make that decision.
Our 7 year old (too young) tabby developed a drooling issue a few weeks back. Thought it was just a dental issue or an abscess.
Long story short...mouth cancer. No hope of surgical resolution. And he was going downhill fast. It was heartbreaking watching him desperately trying to groom himself but he couldn't. And in the last day he couldn't even eat.
We visited the vet on Saturday and got the bad news. We made the heartbreaking decision to see him off the next day. So we had 24 hours to say goodbye.
I didn't want to make that same mistake again that I made the first time, so I ensured I was there with all of us around him, and tried to not turn into a puddle.
Watching him pass away in our arms is something I will never be able to get out of my head. And watching my (adult) kids have their hearts broken as well was even worse.
Next level was watching my son lose his best buddy (they had an absolute special bond, I don't even know how to explain it) was absolutely gutting. And still is. I about lost it when he took one last picture holding his paw back here at home before we buried him.
As much as it was the right decision to relieve his pain and suffering, it is always incredibly heartbreaking, especially at such a young age. And it happened so fast.
I know the pain will lessen for all of us. Time heals all wounds. But wow, pets get deep into your heart.
Ugh.
Sorry, just needed to clear my head.